This xanga thing just randomely pops into my head every now and then, and i think to myself, Oh wow i need to let shit off my chest, so i come here, and ramble about random things.  You love it, i know.  Okay, anyway....

This weekend i was uberly sick.  It sucked mucho mucho.  Now im better, sort of.

My insides feel better, physically, not emotionally now.

I was fine.  I had a spiffy day, 8th period was the shit.  Nahor has a "magic body" and he decided i do to.  And he thinks im hillarious, because you know, i laugh nonstop and think everything is funny.  I always thought that was something everyone hated about me, because im always loud and stuff.  Well apparently i was wrong, or at least with him.  And then before i left class he asked me what color my eyes are, and told me theyre beautiful.  Ive never been told that either.  Interesting how things work these days.  It was nice though, i gotta love my chocolate man.

Anyway, that was good.  Then things went bad.  Who woulda thought that being in classes felt better than being around people your usually really cool with...

People are fuckheads and say things they shouldn't. 

I wish i could say what one of my really close friends was told was a lie, but its not.  Im not stating what its about, but its not a lie.  It happened, a long long time ago, not recently, but it was something i did being i was insanely out of my mind and didnt know what i was thinking. 

No one knows what im talking about, its fabulous.  Not really.

Thats off topic, anyway, now that my friend told me what she was told, i cant stop thinking about it.  Because me and the person that told a thousand bajillion people said we would keep it between us, and not tell anyone.  Funny how i trust people that i know i shouldnt.  Whats wrong with me?  And why do i do such stupid things?

Anyone catching on yet? 

Any idea whos a conceited bastard who cant keep his mouth shut?

Idk. thats it. Peace.

p.s- Theres a hint in the last question...

Later bitches.

Currently Listening Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast) By Jonathan Larson, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia see related

Christmas is done.  Better than last year, thankgod.  Elise, auntie, uncle, and gama came to visit for a day.  24 hours big deal. pft. for the little amount of time we had together, it was by far the best christmas present/surprise ive ever gotten.

Then I got back friday night, got no sleep.  New Years Eve was spent with the TCbitches. For most of you who dont know what that is, its Trampoline Club.  Anyone, that was another night with absolutely no sleep with the exception of 8-12 sunday morning, only 4 short hours of sleep.  It was pretty much an amazing night with tons of unexpected turns. 

Next week is one year since one of the worst times ill ever remember.  Im kind of scared for it to come, but i just want to get it over with.  I still remember it all like it was yesterday, almost every detail still runs through my head to this day continually.  But the one thing i remember most are the people that were there for me, the friends that got me through it, and how last year they were solely my backbone.  But then, this year, i still only talk to 2 of those people on a daily basis.  The other two seem to have faded in time, and i dont like that, but i know i cant change it.

Anyway, the boy is still good, sort of.  The friday school got out was rather interesting, fun, a little weird, but good.  I havent talked to him since, because ive been away, and because we dont talk as much as we did when he first told me he liked me in the first place.  Boys are jerks. .  Oh but he's one thing, and now theres another boy who likes me, someone i only see as a friend, and i think i always will, but he insists on making such a scene everywhere so i talk to him and only him.  Its hard.  I dont get it, just like.. a month ago no boys talked to me, only the ones that i always talk to, and have a regular friendship with, i wanted a boyfriend or anything for that matter, now there are 2 or 3 who apparently like me, wont ask me out, and only one i like.. and i dont know how to tell the other that itll never happen because im afraid itll be taken the wrong way and he'll make the situation worse as usual.

Bleh.

Whatever.

Im in a decent mood lately, no need to change that today.

Peace fuckers.

Currently Listening Sweet Charity (2005 Broadway Revival Cast) see related

Okay, so there's more than one person reading my xanga.   Missy and Nikki T.  Love them to pieces, nothing can EVER change that.  I would die without my "Pez" (loPEZ) or "Nikkititus".. (new disease) .  Nicknames are the shit, yo.

So, i got rennie a hamster for xmas, as most know, yet now she isnt allowed to keep it.  Therefore, its mine now, since i cant return it and whatnot.  I told her she can share ownership though, and we named her Penelope.   I love renn and Penn.

The boy makes me happy.  "Idk Im odd."  Are the exact words he said to me when i asked why he told me he wasnt sure whether he was gonna ask me out or not.  He gives me cute kisses randomely when he can, and then when no one is around he does the naughty.   He made my butterflies take off.

Im going to New York tomorrow.  Broadway, bitches.  I fucking love it there.  I want to see Rent SOOOO incredibly bad.  Eddie bo beddie told me over the summer that he'd take me.. he "hasn't gotten a chance to get tickets yet." Dont know if that will ever happen.  But anyway, tomorrow i shall be seeing Sweet Charity.  I cant spell for my life, so who knows if thats right.  Point being, i get to see an amazing play, at an amazing place, on an amazing day, after an amazing day, with an amazing girl in it.. Christina Applegate.  I pretty much can't wait.  And ive totally got a thousand and one batteries stocked for the digi. camera.  Of course.

Uhm. soooo. me = bed.  Gotta get up early.

Peace, lovelies. 

Currently Listening Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast) By Jonathan Larson, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia see related

Well its official.  We like eachother.  Have either of us done anything about it?  No.  Has he asked me to hang out with him?  Yes.  Have I?  No.  Why?  Because guard runs my goddamn life. 

Oh i dont know.

But i stole his sweatshirt, and am in it right now.  Because i told him i wouldn't give it back today.  It quite comfy.  And i intend on sleeping in it.  Who knows?

Christmas soon.  Can't really wait.  Ive watched The Grinch 5 times since Saturday.  Fuck yes.

Pottery pretty much sucks.  I need 4 cylinders by like.. next Friday.  I have two.  And it took 2 weeks to make them.  Fail?  Yes.

Erica's birthday today.  Happy Birthday my fellow Jewish Baked Potato Head. <3

Spent the night with her and some other friends.  Rather fun, very interesting.

Me + Going to bed = Now.

Later bitch. 

I say bitch because i guarantee there is only like.. one person reading this.  If anyone.

Currently Listening Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast) By Jonathan Larson, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia see related

Partied at my house last night. Not sure how i fit all four of us in my room, but i did it, and it made me pretty damn happy to be with them.  They make me smile.

The week went by fucking slow. And i hate when that happens. Thursday was shit. Friday was amazing, until Pizzzzza Hutttt.

Two boys, no names mentioned, should most definately jump off a cliff together. Well, no. One can, but im sure the other would follow because he's so easily manipulated. Shit son, what is the world coming to?!

So Friday went as follows: School,home,pizza hut,school,king of kings for the dylio,then home.

Got a kiss, yo. Completely unexpected. As well as the feeling i got. Not sure how ill go about this situation, but i'm not a shallow bitchy girl who wont give a guy a chance because they arent the ideal amazing stud. We'll see where this goes.

Guard is rather interesting. We can't wear anything but bodytights under our uniforms apparently, and that isnt gonna fly well. Meaning bra's. Then there's a random red cape thing on the back of our asses.. which should also be different, being that we do have flagwork between our legs.

Uhm. idk. i think thats it. Xanga sucks.

Peace.